dreaming reality..

sooooo.. it has been quite some time since i last said something on here. first of all i just want to say something about my sweetheart mandy allen. she is just so awesome.. and amazing and beautiful and sweet and everything i can think of. we resently parted ways.. again. ha. it was pretty sad. the second goodbye was more of a goodbye for two years than the third one was but thats ok. i just miss her so much and i could go on and on about her. she is in washington selling living scripture dvds which is so stupid i think sometimes but its good for her. i just miss my sexy love ha. lots.. i think about her all the time. probably more than she does me. i know its more than she does me.. i just cant help it. shes that amazing. i cant believe i wont be able to hold her in my arms again for two years.. or hold her soft hands. or tickle her haha.. thats fun too. even though she hates it. MANDY I MISS YOU.. whaa... :(

other than a huge part of me leaving ive been having some adventures. i just went to california for a week road trippin in the buick! she ran like a champ in case anyone is wondering. that was quite the fun trip and if i knew how to post picures on here i would but im too lazy to try to figure it out. im surprised im even writing this but i just know mandy likes when i blog so i am. so california was fun.. matt threw up all over my car.. so i threw up all over his garbage can.. ha. thats a small taste of how memorable that trip was. good times...

i am currently in florida with my family on a little trip. TODAY I SWAM WITH MANATEES. in the wild. it was pretty crazy and i was kinda scared.. it wasnt at like some zoo where you pay money to swim with them it was in the wild kids.. and there were possibly alligators in the water too and i couldnt see anything in the water it was so muddy but i had to take the opportunity to swim with the creatures that i love so much ha. i never touched one unfortunately.. i was too hesitant and scared and i those things are fast little HUGE buggers. but i was probably like 10 feet or less to some in the water at times. it was just awesome. also i saw a rocket launch today at the NASA space center. it was pretty whack.. freakin awesome. you cant be within 3 miles of it.... or else you will like die.. thats how big of an explosion it is. it was awesome to see. and after that we went to the beach and attempted to surf and boogy board and while i was in the water i kept thinking about sharks and it sucked. but it was fun. so far on this trip we have caught: a lizard, 2 frogs, small crab and seen: alligators, large crabs, weird prehistoric looking crab?, manatees, sharks, crazy looking birds with long faces, and.... hmm.. i think thats it. lots of wild life here in florida.

in closing i just want to say holy crap.. im leaving on a mission in like 3 weeks and in no way do i feel prepared or qualfied to do so.. im so scared but i know its what i need to be doing. my farewell is this sunday.. scary and weird to think about. and also mandy my sexy love. i just miss you so incredibly much i dont think you can even begin to comprehend. well tomorrow im going to disneyworld so i better get my rest.. fare thee well bloggers. ill be back.. i think? well find out i guess. oh and p.s. my track team is leaving to texas for the conference championships tomorrow.. :( man that sucks. mandy dear. your amazingly wonderfully beautiful and awesome my sweet

Be of Good Cheer

"Since last we met together in a general conference six months ago, there have been continuing signs that circumstances in the world aren’t necessarily as we would wish. The global economy, which six months ago appeared to be sagging, seems to have taken a nosedive, and for many weeks now the financial outlook has been somewhat grim. In addition, the moral footings of society continue to slip, while those who attempt to safeguard those footings are often ridiculed and, at times, picketed and persecuted."

"It would be easy to become discouraged and cynical about the future—or even fearful of what might come—if we allowed ourselves to dwell only on that which is wrong in the world and in our lives. Today, however, I’d like us to turn our thoughts and our attitudes away from the troubles around us and to focus instead on our blessings as members of the Church."

what a novel idea
oh. the prophet said that.

there and back again. a hobbits tale

well i returned from my trip. it was a grand time up in the land of logan. it was filled with perilous activity. my head was almost bitten on, literally, by an aggie who calls herself andee. but i survived luckily she doesnt bite too hard ;) i regret to inform you that i am not an ulitmate aggie... maybe one day. probably not.. what an awesome tradition. (ill never do that for those of you that take me too seriously) nor am i a true aggie. technically. but all and all it was a successfully awesome trip. i love spending time with mandy she is splendidly beautifully great. no guys even look at her while im gone. i miss her. even though shes being pretty lame o right now because i did an april fools that was too much to handle apparently.. ha. im an idiot i know but ive said sorry a million times. and said everything good and cheesy to her i can possibly think of.. but its not enough. i dont get it. it would make me feel better.. idk what to say anymore.. sorry? and now she made me all disgruntled because she left me hangin.. ha. all thanks to april fools haha. dumb. i should have just covered the toilet with plastic wrap or something.. april fools always ends up bad for me. being apart from her is just no bueno. technology is stupid. i miss her lots. shes really great. im sorry babe.
so pretty much im leaving on a mission in less than two months. its going to be super hard.. we did role play in mission prep yesterday pretending we were talking to people on the street and we had to say something within a few seconds.. HARD. its incredible 19 year imature kids like me are out there doing that right now. and people actually listen to them!.. that blows my mind. i cant wait its going to be such a sweet hard rewarding grueling growing heartbreaking thoughtful awesome wonderful a million things experience. so pretty much i wrote like twice this much and then when i tried to publish it half of it deleted... and i dont want to write it all out again. bummer. pretty much i just cant wait to leave. thats basically what it said. itll be SUPER

i will survive

soon i shall embark on a journey. a journey that will be filled with danger. i am heading to the dreaded logan. a place where the beer flows like honey and professors aren't afraid to hop in the sauna with naked boys. yes this journey will be perilous and frightful.. but i feel like i can make it out alive. if im lucky.. many a friend of mine have lost there ways traveling to logan. theres just something about logan that screams punk rock princess...or softy if you will. and im not sure what it is but it drags you down into the depths.. i will survive my friends. i will beat this beast that will soon be upon me. the beast that is logan utah. people arent afraid of their sexuality there... i mean no one is hiding in the closet down there in logan.. ha.. however there is one tradition that only logan has to offer that i feel is a very prominent tradition. one that i feel i may take part in on my journey. and that tradition is the ulitimate aggie. ha. true aggie is good... but is it ulitimate? i think not. well wish me luck my friends. i will return shortly and tell you of my tales

60 second poems with levi

Ive decided to spice up B-Bloggity Blawesome for you my fans out there. So to add a little spice to this already happenin blog know as B-Bloggity Blawesome possum awesome rawsome, I'm going to add a little something called "60 second poems with levi" and will occasional add a poem that i have written. These ain't no rip offs folks. These are genuine and come straight from the nogan of mister Ball. So if anyone feels like I am plagerizing professional poets.. please.. your just wasting everyones time. let the games begin. other bloggerz may join in if they would like to.

60 second poem numero uno titled: elevator fun.
ohhhhh fun.
fun in the sun.
for everyone.

could it be better?
maybe with cheddar. cheese?
but doubtful..

started with Bean.
made a big scene
now its serene

ate some pizza.
yeah.. just ate some pizza.

could have been great
with elevator fate
another date? :)

ended with OC
rhymes with wussy..
which rhymes with, sam?

ohhhhh fun.
fun in the sun.
for everyone.

My shoulders hurt.

over and out.

hola B-Bloggity Blawesome-ers? out there

this is B-Bloggity Blawesome here reporting for duty. just got a few announcements to make. one to all my B-Bloggity Blawesome fans out there just want to clarify i dont hate life haha. im a pretty big fan of it actually. just wanted to clarify.. my posts seem a little.. iffy.. ha. and im not gothic. and the second announcement goes to one miss mandy allen. sure hope you dont take any of my blogs the wrong way. pretty much i still got the hots for you.. not pretty much. i got the hots for you still. so just a little recap for those of you just tuning in to B-Bloggity Blawesome in the morning. im not a freak. just get a little lost in this thing i call a head sometimes. sometimes i pick up channels i dont really want to with these big ears of mine. ha. that was supposed to be a joke. i dont hate life is basically what im trying to say. also. I GOT THE HOTS FOR MANDY ALLEN. This is B-Bloggity Blawesome saying i just slept through all my classes and am still in bed. over and out.

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